wordless wednesday #12

not my expertise

very very recently the husband make his way to our home for an update progress. Like i said earlier, i'm numb when talking pertaining house. be it purchasing neither structuring! I don't have a single clue on what a beam looks like or what composites materials used or what holds up the ceilings and the walls. I totally cannot imagine. I mean, when seeing a house under renovation, hubby will go "ohh,kemas kontraktor ni buat kerja die" whenever he sees one, analyzing the piece attached to another, whereas i on the other hand see it as just a piece of naked wall. Nothing more.

He knows what tabletop best fit the concept of a kitchen he has in mind. What solid and which are not or steel A are much much elastic if compared to steel B. Daannnggg! How difference could it be anyhow? He's the handy man. So, i would very much appreciate he take care on matters said. The later part i.e when deco came into picture, you definitely can rely on my ten fingers and a single brain of mine :)

I don't even understand what to describe what's happening here. Hubby took the picture. All i can say, 30% work completed. As per hubby said. *_*

On the site progress.

the staircase. hubby actually took like 50 pictures all together which i see it all are likely the same and he went those may seem similar but it's from different angel. For him to be able to measure the proportionate he said. 

Purchasing a property has never been easy. Hassle particularly pertaining the documentations. And cost a loop to your bank account too!

20 months

tick tock tick tock... lapse of time is definately felt! adam is now 20 months young, and will soon turn 2! How time has never wait for even a single second. He's no longer a baby as it may seems, but eternally he is at heart. And i shall pat myself for being able to render the duty of a MOTHER coming to this point. Lots and loads of PATIENCE needed along the way and much say, days ahead in dealing with him becoming toddler, meeting new phase of environment in life, the unpredictable. It is said, watching the parents control their temper may be the first step in his learning to control his.

At this point, Adam has never fail to amuse us. Everyday, and every deeds he's developing and absorbing the sees and do's from surrounding. Notes on his being 20 months;

1. Understand simple instructions i.e "Adam, go get the Remote Control for me please"..- and he'll be back with one.

2. Still emerging language skills - he remembers precisely on certain things i.e whenever he sees the Petronas logo, be it outside, in the newspaper, on notebook, even on ayah's shirt. He'll shout for "nassss"..

3. On the new vocab he picked -  McD (mek-nol-nol), Shell (dell), Playground (pey-gong), House (house), Bicycle (kal), Pillow (wo-wo), Aeroplane (aa-yoo-pane), Tractor (tek-torr) Merdeka (deka) and few more to mention..

4. When i point to him and asked, "who's this?"..he replied saying A-tammm.. cute i think!

5. He has now complete his Transport book.. and moving on to the First Word Book.. 

6. Address waitresses he bump into as "kakak".. 

7. Knows to pull his pants off when mommy said shower time. 

8. Whenever done's with 'business', he'll let us know.. "mommy, yakkk".."wash mi" ..and oh i think he's ready for potty training kot kan.. hmm, must do reading on this.

9. Loves "aa-kutt" (Yakult) and "yatt"(chocolate)..NOT GOOD! most of the time i'd hide whatever that is chocolate based from his sight. I personally do not want him to consume chocolate/candies at this age.

10. Knows how to knock - knock when entering a room, gives salam i.e akum whenever enters the house. And prefers running instead of walking!

11. Refuse his binky on his own! He went no-no when i offered one. Good boy!

Adam, the list sure continues as time goes by. Whenever one day you read what i have jot down, i want you to know, despite the naughtiness - makes mommy went adammmmm!!! whenever you lashes out, you did not fail to impress. You put a smile on my face when i needed one most! And knowing you calling mommy mommy see is (this) from outside when i was taking bath, is such a wonderful feeling you know. It is felt at heart. I didn't realized it until today. Mommy loves you son!

my late raya post

For now it seems everybody has loaded up their joyous raya celebrations on fb,blogs,twitter,etc etc.. How wonderful to be able to see the celebrations through out the continent portraying family and friends in their vibrant baju tailored dedicatedly for Raya and - the smile of one wearing's it, grace and  is just simply luscious. It's the sensation and vibe that makes the Raya always a memorable one! So here i am, putting the color imaging our Raya celebrations despite being drainage due to my pinkeye disease. Yes, conjunctivitis raya for me! *boo* But still surrounded by loved ones, are the cut! No any feelings could deter the fact. 

the little fella on raya eve.

i made with lotsaaaa love. an extra one indeed. it turns out pretty OK i can say. But hubby claims the 2010's way much much yummier! did not score on that.

1st Syawal 2011..

We are family! Adam suprisingly was not a hesitant when it comes to songkok. Wasn't the same for last year where i had to pick up his songkok after every steps i made.

the in-laws. can you just imagine, we totally forgot to snap a picture of all at the in-laws side? argh! only the parents had theirs,lovingly :)

wrap-up! I don't want to eye-sore you guys with too much of us.haha.

Selamat Hari Raya again readers!

Salam Aidilfitri 2011

it soooo quiet in the office. you even noticed a single clip falls. i still got tonnes of work to do,thus explains why am being obedient in the office still. BUT,not for long i guess. I am not that OBEDIENT yo all. The Raya vibe that's instilling surrounding, has by all means taken it's toll on me. ahaks. oh when nowadays everybody's at the verge of technology for hari raya wishes,i on the other hand still receive kad raya you see... very nice of the thought.

Last but not least,

To all,here's my sincere heartfelt,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

buka puasa

my oh my..it's the last 10 days of Ramadhan already.. to be precise, it's the 24th and 6 days left before Ramadhan bid farewell to the Muslims entire world. So sad, when came to think of it. what have i accomplished? Sobbsss..

Anyhow, speaking of the month, Buka Puasa event is like a must or per say, becoming tradition. Everywhere you see there'll be huge banner promoting their buka puasa at the rate of sometimes nerve-break seeing. Can you just  imagine a person eating a total of 140+ per pax? In a single spread? duhhh, too much and i don't think i could afford the luxurious. Well, exceptional implies if one would be generous enough to pay on the expenses *booo*

Adam and annah enjoying ais krim potong - served in the Residence Hotel buffet line. the buffet spread was heavenly divine that you'd love to come again.hands down on lamb..no,i'm no a fan to lamb but seeing people indulge in it may be mouth watering! The bills taken care by mom. Thanks mom.

and us, the girlfriends during my uni years. we made up for a buka puasa at Lake Club Putrajaya. The food was luscious. We were all stuffed from the serving. Oh and we had goodies for the event cum celebrating the mom-soon-to-be and the bride-to-be :) we talk, we laughed and did reminiscence ..no pulling hairs like those years.haha.girls, cheers for the friendship!

begging for food in most extreme. cannot wait one this boy.

and more - the evergreen everlasting schoolmate. few of us in frame. this time around we had a feast at Umai D' Lake Cafe, Putrajaya. The pancake and ubi kayu rebus are to die and for! I succeeded being single mother coming to the event. My very first attempt and yeayyy,not much of a drama to cater except for a little bit of running and hopping. Mind you, i have never since i gave birth to Adam went outing just the two of us. Thank you to Qilla who had her hands on me. 

and last but not least, to round up the table, buka puasa with the office gang at again Umai D' Lake :p i told ya, the pancake are to die for and worth every penny for a second visit. 

All in all, it's not about the food that we crave for, neither any luxurious place to dine in. Rather the relationships bonding that take place holds the highest virtue. I appreciate it much!

workload

dear workload, 

can i not be friend you? one more, can i have a slightly bigger desk to cater you workload?

alhamdulillah

Oh i have not jot down for quite sometimes! Work has always been the arch of nemesis. Duhh, what else kan? anak pun baru sorang kott :p

A little recap on the little brother - all in a nutshell, i shall praise my highest gratitude to Him - the guidance and the most merciful. Alhamdulillah, the silver lining has made it's way to us. Blessings in continuity. Little brother has now gather back the pieces he left or might had fallen somewhere, becoming the him i longed miss. He's back! Despite having to make a visit once a month to the hospital for the medication & consultation, hello hello to the attending psychiatrist, few more chemo cycles for him to complete, the tablets that needs to go through his throat, rather than that, alhamdulillah! The ordeal he went through was a chocking one i must say. Not easy for him to digest the fact, in the kind of nervous anticipation and all, of but for now alhamdulillah he finally bounce back. Cannot wait to start work some more he claims! He indeed has done amazing feats for betterment. 

Thank you Allah and to the Sunway team who'd had been cooperative and gleaming enough provided the hospitality. 

And to end my short note here, i would very much delighted to make a shout out to my dearest xetxet, congratulations! congratulations! and congratulations! 1.the "two lines", then the Wisma, and last but not least, fourtyfour! yeayy! see, i told u kan, rezeki orang baru kawen :) u take care okay.

Ramadhan Day 4

Salam Ramadhan fellow friends and to all Sisterhood Muslims..

It's day 4 of Ramadhan. Lapse of time has taken on toll. Workload was to dear too company for the past month. Meetings day and night. Hence for the lack of updates. Papers to review upon submission. Too many. I'm picking up the steeps to be back on track.

And adik, just when you were about to see him regaining back from the loss he'd been through, the doc's mere voice proclaiming adik need to be monitored closely and further test procedure need to be conducted, were like a knife struck straight into my heart. i mean like, admitted again? Apparently it seems adik's body did not reacted the way that it must upon the previous medication prescribed hence not much of a progress he made. Ohh why?

Poor adik..It's like pouring salt to an open wound when Doctor Amir, upon hearing the symptoms adik tends to exhibit, i.e odd and bizarre behavior (talking craps few times like i mention in prev post, depression, mourning to himself and some of the time he seem to be in the state of delusion or best said hallucinate), has pretty much encouraged adik to see Psychiatrist. Not to mention the neuro team he were about to meet this morning. So, there goes, the list of test & persons needed in regaining back his composure, the person he once was. Now tell me, how can i be any happier knowing the state he's in?

I know this is the holy month of Ramadhan, a month of ocean-wide blessings. I must adapt and seek continuous dua from Allah without fail. Seeing him in such pain, giving the situation he's in, i got carried away easily and strewn. I am always at the verge to cry. Amidst of all the bitterness, i sincerely hope for a silver lining to shine towards the coming eid.

Thank you for all the prayers friends &  family.

Adam on the other hand, conjuring well to the surroundings given the new skills he developed every now and then. Like counting 1-10 for example. In his very own version. One, Two, silence, pour (4), pie (5), silence again, benn (7), teyyy (8), silence, and Tennnnnnn! Hand clapping eagerly of course praising himself. Argh, he never fail to put a smile on me despite all the miseries. 

Sejadah pun boleh untuk lap tayar kereta *_*

flame of hope

the past couple of days haven't exactly been a joy ride to the seaside. indeed. all i have this one hope.. for adik to regain and bounce back.

i am deeply taken by adik's current condition. it's pushing me over the edge. he's weak. he loss his faith in himself and what's more in life. and i find myself sobbing cat and dogs. i felt sorry for him. walking around with a heavy cloud above my head is so not my cup of tea.

After being saddled with so many issues surrounding adik's condition, slowly but surely I felt like I was going to crack. Crack from the pressure, the sheer exhaustion, juggling family and work priorities, all of this while still having to put up a smile at the end of the day and reassure everyone that everything will be alright. I wish i could tell the world he'll soon be running up again, hassling the futsal's court and tennis might as well. Very soon. But far from the ordeal for now. 

He is still battling himself. H was diagnosed with SLE, and warded for 4 days at Sunway Medical Center to undergo MRI and series of test relativity to rectify his illness for further treatment. Not to mention the frustration he's handling emotionally. 

I myself had my schedule all ruin. With the husband who's not around coping the given situation. Imagine myself pick up Adam at 5 everyday after work and meet dayah (Hasif's gf) before wheeling straight to Sunway where the rest of the family members were already taking turns looking after him and only left for home at 12-ish midnight. Exhausted physically and emotionally drained out. 

See him? Shrinking. Thank you Allah to all who paid him a visit. It has enlighten him in some ways.

Further exacerbate his condition, He has this "bende" from his inner self. An evil voice from inside. The doctor has been considerate enough and entitled him for a month MC in order for him to recuperate. Being home, with hope to makes him feel better, neither helped much. Last night, we were all dining together, where he abruptly stood up and went to the main door grasping his car key. i asked, "adik nak pegi mana?" he then replied huskily, "adik nak pegi sembahyang. dah lewat ni"..it was 10pm by the way..so, i then quest him back, "adik nak pegi sembahayang kat mana?"..he looked outside and said "adik nak pegi sembahyang bawah pokok tu"..at that time, i realize that was not him. the evil voice is playing part. 

Abah has brought him twice to Darrulsyifa'. They gave him "air penawar" to get rids of the demons. We were asked to recite Yassin everyday. Till date, he has not shown further improvement. Or just yet maybe. I know, healing takes time. He sometimes mourned himself, and cry like a baby repenting for his wrongdoings. Dwelling over his sins. It breaks my heart seeing him in pain. Seeing him growling in disoriented was never in picture. He was the type who speaks out for wants and very determined with what he choose. 

I hope one fine day, i'll be seeing him coming home all sweating from Tennis and insist me for a cup of coffee. Yes, he said i made kaw coffee one. I miss him. I miss outing with him. I miss arguing him on politics and goofing out and about the town. I need to see him back in his best composure. Adam needs his Uncle Chip. He needs company for football. The house need some cheering up for the coming Ramadhan.

Dear Allah, if it's not much for me to seek, please granted this one flame hope of mine. Amin.