beginning and the end to life

something to ponder upon. source: here

thank you azie

Those pictures are from the great host, azie! So yeah, a filled weekend, did some catching up with the high school gang - good food company - alhamdulillah! Blessed for the weekend. 

This little man - concentration as it may seem.. his high chair being adjusted into a study table since he refuse profoundly to sit on high chair, be it lunch or dinner. Wanna have meal like an adult! So, next is to get him a drawing block  to make sure no wall painting seen anywhere in the house. 

friday ramblings

my son can now perform du'a makan on his own, well apparent to his version of course, a two year old.


"owoh huma bayyik nana, mima atana, kinna, aja bana..amin" ahahahaha, i was all in mushy mushy teary eyes. it was just so simply pure and i gave him big hug for the deed. Also sometimes whenever he remembers, he'll said 'am-du-yi-yahhh" when he sneezes. Cute! (or at least I think so :p) Mommy loves you son, above all the world offers me.

mimpi di petang hari

spotted super handsome luxurious A8 on the road last night. cc 3.0 (I think so)! 

me: perghhhhh... kete die B..gile cool kan? kalau la tibe2 I dapat lucky draw kete macam tu.. best kan B..

hubby: mimpi la yang..

unfortunately I did not manage to peek into the window to see who the lucky driver is.

mayhem of the week

A missed period is often the first sign that you're pregnant. But what if you've missed, and you're not pregnant? 

It freaks me out, totally! My period has always be on constant regular basis, one's that knock on me monthly except for when i was pregnant for Adam lah of course. Recently, just very recently i missed my period. The last one i had was in November, and coming to date, i have not had my cycle for a month and plus. Being curious, i brave myself and took the pregnancy test about 2 weeks ago to check whether if i am pregnant. BUT it came out nayyyy..Negative! Maybe it was a false reading, so i took the test again to re-assure and the result came out to be the same. Negative. No period and not pregnant??? YES i was down in disappointment, nothing beats the real (maybe i put hope a lil bit too high). 

Oh did i not mention? We have started executing for our second one since September and the attempt seem  no avail to date. Hence the disappointment. I was left with a question boggling in mind, if not pregnant then what could possibly went wrong to my monthly cycle? I sat down and ponder. Heart was beating like a drum rolls. So i told husband and seek for what he has to say on the matter. 'Lebih baik kite jumpe doktor pakar. Kalau betul tak pregnant, tak apelah, belum rezeki adam nak dapat adik.. at least kite dapat tahu kenapa period tak datang..i takut fibroid ke ape ke..'- he responded.

After much deliberation, we both consented seeking opinion from the expert. Went to Az-Zahrah Specialist this morning with so many 'what-if' in mind. What if there's a cyst? What if the doctor diagnose it's  fibroid and it's at crucial stage? What if suddenly the doctor say am in need to undergo surgery? The most extreme that i came to vision - what if i won't be able to be pregnant again? I kid you not. Too many what if's..I was scared. The waiting game at the clinic had further enhance my inferiority, all at the back of my head. 

And somehow, Alhamdulillah, according to the doctor, my reproduction system are normal, no sign of cyst or any unwanted gland, uterus all seems normal. On that point of view, Alhamdulillah i couldn't be any relieve. The doctor then consulted, among normal diagnosis, delayed in period and not pregnant may be due to hormonal imbalance. She said "Women of all ages may experience hormonal imbalance. Every month, the female hormones estrogen and progesterone are produced. When estrogen and progesterone levels do not balance, this may have a dramatic effect on your health"..*now heart beat plays drum rolls  again* 

She further added, hormonal imbalance take place normally when the body is stressed out, excessive weight loss & weight gain, change in medication or any severe illness. Gahhh! Now i know where my case stands. OVERWEIGHT!*feel like screaming to the world* Yeah so i admit to the doctor i had double the size of my pre pregnancy. *boo ho ho* We discussed, she throws in few more questions (a very nice lady doctor she is) and concluded prescribing me 'provera-progestine hormone' - helping to restore balance to hormonal levels and at the same time i must work with her on reducing weight! *hate rice-hate rice-hate rice*

In 10 days of medication prescription, if there's still no bleeding indication, will need to come and see her again. Holistic remedies is also recommended according to the doctor. Now that's the problem. I'm bald when talking on per say. I do not know which is actually needed in my case.Hmm. So now i'm telling the world, i shall -no more contemplating- be back on my dietary regimes. MUST!

jodoh itu rahsia Allah

Jodoh itu rahsia Allah..

SELAMA mana anda setia...

SEHEBAT mana anda merancang...

SEDETIK lebih anda menunggu...

SETABAH mana anda bersabar...

SEJUJUR mana anda menerima dirinya...

Jika ALLAH Tidak Menulis Jodoh Anda Bersama Si Dia, Anda Tetap Tidak Akan Bersama.

i found this on someone's fb status so i thought of writing something related.

cousin of mine, named SHE who's wedding is suppose to be in next week (20th Jan 2012), gotta find out her 6 years boyfie of beloved fiance is actually someone's else's husband couples of days before. now how's that? Can one imagine the wound SHE's bearing right now? It's like life salvaging. A totally terror wash out. No any sane living woman would want to continue the matrimonial in given circumstance i suppose. So SHE made up her mind vividly clear, no more drawback to call off the wedding.

 With all the preps 90% done, invitations sent out to neighbours and friends, event's created on fb, house were even painted new.. what is there left for her except for tears being in deep cut. The morning SHE broke the news (on Tuesday), i couldn't help holding tears myself. In the first place i thought SHE was making up craps (since the wedding is nearing so i thought SHE might have caught the wedding bug syndrome). But way to my disappointment, nothing of a kind. It's the hurting truth she's prevailing.

I am still dumbstruck in awe, fail to believe it's happening. After all this time, ramblings of a girl dating another girls' husband or -  i only see the story lines on TV, never came across to mind that it'll happen in the family. poor SHE. Courage and utmost support is all she need from family and friends. To SHE, i know it's easy said than done but believe me, Allah knows best! Allah has made plans for you. All you need to do is keep walking and never look back. InsyaAllah the rainbow prevails after all the rain sheds. 

Jodoh itu adalah rahsia Allah..

harboured love

Coming back home late last night, mom decided for a decent family dinner. On her, she said. *that's lovely, i thought so*. Nowadays, siblings are all grown up, you'll find it tough to get everybody sits together except for it was earlier planned. It's either one will be back late for dinner or the other one engaged on meeting friends at mamak. I mean, how often do we call our brother/sister to ask how well have they been doing. Perplexed eye, to us they may seem fine, but how can you be sure? *i think i began value family even more once i have had one of my own*

So since it was the full house home last night, mom made up the place for us. Yeayyy. Catching up times. I just love being surrounded with loved ones. You can almost feel the vibe and intensity you once had for them.   

Full-house keeping up the sanity contented.

glorious food trigger happiness for the night.

everybody got to taste a pinch to each serving. Spread the love.

No matter how high we've climb the ladder in life, always always root back to family.

birthday present from Owan

see Owan? Passionate :)

Son turns 2

So here's a toast for my first post in this new year blessings! Happy New Year to all. May all well ended well. There's loads of things conjured through out the year, be it laughter & tears, all are memories that will remain at heart, treasures to be re-open one day.

so yeah, my boy finally hits two! December baby. No partayyy nor balloons what so ever this year. Ayah said instead of channelling his hard earned pays to the balloons and ribbon etc, why not we start saving for the house. Later the house needs grill, furnishing etc etc. So, yes, from this year on, i'll be getting those automatic generate reminder from husband. Hmmphh! 

My Cheeky Monster turns two! Fact-I just came to realised this little man will enter Primary One at the age of six! 

All we did was just a small BBQ with families celebrating the little man turns two and in conjunction welcoming the new year. Pure bliss seeing the relatives mingles around catching up and munching on the home made yummies. Just bliss. I ordered Red Velvet for the birthday boy and aunt generously made him a carrot cake. So two cakes for the little man who turns two. Perfect to make him squeal in delight :)

Amongst the spread we had for the night-Chinese Fried Rice by Owan, and Caramel Pudding by aunt. Oh proudly present my skewers. It all disappeared in a split seconds you know:p

Happy Birthday son! Mommy & Ayah loves you to bits!

son oh son..

masyaAllah! after a joyful day spent with Owan & Omak. 

Disclaimer: This is NOTHING or NOT EVEN NEAR to like mother like son! No..no..Hahaha.